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For a long time, I had no idea for writing anything. I don't no how to initiate or what topic is to hold a conversation. I compel myself to forget a habit which take a important role in my charater, chatting with my girl.
Now, we both have own way to life, so I don't want to draw her back. I regret only thing that I hadn't made a strickly choice, which led to a breaking relationship like this.
I had to pay for this, and I was pleasure for accepting it without complaining.
Many times, it back me up with an numerous memories about our time when we are together. It took me a lot of tear of regreting. How can't I cover her with a box and put it in the safe? That is a question.